tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27182255160101007662024-02-20T01:24:58.296-08:00My Journey To A BFPKortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.comBlogger59125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-37478495586883233622012-02-11T06:40:00.000-08:002012-10-15T08:53:54.373-07:00A lot has happened....I can't believe my babies are almost 4 months old! Times flies! I had a pretty boring pregnancy and just never found time to post about anything that was going on. I found out at 12w3d that we were having a boy and a girl! Of course that early we weren't 100%. At my later appointments it was confirmed we were having a boy and a girl! We were so excited! Esp Hutson! He really wanted a brother and a sister!<br />
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At about 30 wks I went in to L&D for some spotting and contractions. I ended up having a bladder infection. I was given antibiotics and felt much better after a few days. Up until then nothing had happened. I had another false alarm around 33 wks. At 34w5d I was back in L&D. I was given a shot to stop my contractions and sent home. I was feeling like it was close...like the next time would be the real deal.<br />
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At 1:20am, 35wks exactly, I woke up to a huge gush! Yep, my water broke! I was in total shock! I woke Corde up and he panicked! He kept asking what he needed to do! I told him to get Hutson and get in the car. I didn't have contractions, just lots of gushing! I told Hutson it was time for babies and he was so excited and sleepy! I called my Mom so she could meet us at the hospital and get Hutson b/c I figured it would still be awhile. Then I called my Mother in Law since she would have a little bit of a drive. I wanted to give her a heads up. We got to the hospital at 1:42am. Got checked in to a room and put on monitors. I had started having some mild contractions but nothing too bad. The nurse checked me and I was 3 cm! My Mom got there pretty quick and got Hutson. I wanted him to get some sleep so she took him back to our house. My mother in law decided she couldn't wait and she headed to our house also. My contractions kept getting worse and closer together but they weren't horrible. I wanted to wait until I was at least 5cm before getting the epi. So around 4am I asked to be checked again b/c the contractions were right on top of each other. I was 5cm! So I asked for the epi. It was great! It was different from the one I got with Hutson. I could still feel and move my legs some...it just took away the pain of the contractions. Around 7am I started feeling lots of pressure. The nurse checked and I was 10cm! It went so fast! They started prepping me and getting the OR ready since I had to deliver there incase of an emergency. I got to the OR at 7:13am, got moved to the teeny tiny table! Laying flat on my back! Not fun when trying to push out babies! It took a few minutes to get everything set up, monitors back on...then it was time to push! It seemed like an eternity and a flash all at once...if thats even possible! At 7:28am Deacon Thane Newport was born! He weighed 5lbs 1 oz and 18 inches long! He screamed!!! It was such an amazing sound! At 7:30am they broke the 2nd bag of water. I was given a few minutes to rest...They brought Deacon over for me to look at, he was so precious! Then it was time to push again! At 7:42, 14 minutes later...Sarah Finley Clarke Newport was born! She weighed 5lbs 10oz and was 19 inches long! It didn't take her long to cry either! As soon as she was born they brough Deacon to me to hold...It was like time stood still...Just staring into his eyes was amazing! I was a crying mess! They finally brought Finley over for just a minute. That's when they told me they were taking her to NICU b/c she was having a few breathing problems. I knew there was a chance they would be in the NICU but it still scared me. Deacon seemed to be fine, they just wanted to observe him. <br />
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Finley was put on a bubble CPAP for 24 hours. She looked pitiful! She had to be tube fed and I couldn't hold her b/c of the CPAP. I was crushed. It took several hours for me to get to the NICU to see them. I did get to hold Deacon though. He was so tiny! They put a feeding tube on him also b/c he wasn't sucking. I was heartbroken that they were both having to stay. They both ended up being jaundice and having to go under lights....that seemed to be our biggest problem. Once Finley came of the CPAP she took her bottles like a champ! Deacon, not so much. He was super lazy and would fall back asleep. Luckily I was able to pump and give them breastmilk at 3 days old! Finley was spitting up a lot, actually vomitting after every feeding until she got breastmilk! <br />
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I was discharged on day 3 but they let me stay until day 4. I came home to be with Hutson and continued to pump every 3 hours and went to visit every 6 hours, there were times I would stay at the hospital for 6 hours...Both babies were under the bili lights for a week! That was the longest week of my life! At that point they just had to take all of their feedings without needing the tube. Finley I wasn't worried about, they even talked about sending her home early but I didn't know how I would juggle having one baby at home and one in the NICU. So, on day 7 I moved back into the hospital and was able to room with them. They didn't need any monitors and were in there own cribs. So I was able to give them all of their bottles. We went home after 10 days! Deacon decided one day he wanted to eat! I was so happy to get them home! <br />
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It has been crazy every since! Its hard work having 2 babies but its also so much fun! I'm loving every minute of it! When they were 6 wks old I started exclusively breastfeeding! They haven't had a bottle since! Which I feel so blessed to be able to do! They are getting so big! Finley weighs about 12 lbs now and Deacon is about 11 lbs. There has been a 1 lb difference the whole time! They are both amazing babies. Finley is a little more high maintenance and Deacon is more laid back but they are both great! <br />
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I will update more later and include pics!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-23298996836785603032011-03-29T18:00:00.000-07:002011-03-29T18:00:08.789-07:00I make miracles happen!We saw 2 beautiful flickering little hearts. Words can not describe the amazing feeling I had in that moment. The feeling I still have...its so amazing! Everything was perfect. My RE has released me to my OB. So no more trips to Dallas. Which makes me a little sad...I'm going to miss him and the nurses. They are all so amazing. <br />
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Everything has been so different...gone so perfectly. It scares me that everything is going so right. I keep expecting something bad to happen. I hate thinking that way. I was so scared for our u/s. Then in 2 minutes it was all over and I was sitting there with tears in my eyes, holding pictures of my beautiful babies! This is real. I'm having TWINS! No more negative thoughts...no more worries. Babies looked great and I won't worry unless there is a reason! I'm just so excited!<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I have an OB appt on April 15th. We will hopefully be doing another u/s. I can't wait to see my babies again! </div>Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-75451894762735104942011-03-27T11:03:00.001-07:002011-03-27T11:03:43.290-07:00Just 2 more days....and I get to see my babies! I'm so nervous and anxious...I just pray all is well!!!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-5272659797879380862011-03-23T19:01:00.000-07:002011-03-23T19:01:38.616-07:00Sorry I've been MIA...I've been busy celebrating! I am 5w4d today! I'm stuck on Cloud 9!!<br />
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</div><div style="text-align: left;">I am still in disbelieve. I am so excited. We have truly been blessed beyond belief. We have been through so much heartache in the past 6 years and for once I feel like this is finally it. We are bringing home these babies! </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I had an appt with my RE yesterday for an u/s to see how many were baking. We were called back by my nurse Heather. I stripped down from the waist down and we waited...seriously felt like an eternity! Dr. Saleh has never made me wait that long. I was a hot mess! I thought I was going to puke, pass out, hyperventilate...it was just bad! Finally he comes in...he's telling me that we want to see a ges sac and yolk sac at this point...so he starts the u/s...I see one little bean...I felt some relief knowing something was there...then I see it again...or so I thought I was seeing it again when he says "Looks like you have twins! Congratulations" DH says "Seriously?!?" So Dr. S is looking and I'm bawling...I was in shock...I had a feeling it was twins, I knew of the possibility but to actually hear it was amazing! Then he pointed out the tiny little speck in both that was the yolk sac! At this point in or other pregnancy we only had an empty sac so it is a huge milestone to see yolk sacs! I couldn't stop crying...Dr. S sd he saw exactly what he wanted to and we will see the heartbeats next Tuesday!!</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">Tuesday can't come fast enough! I can't wait to see those little flickering hearts! We will be telling everyone after the appt. I can't wait any longer! I am going to email a picture of the u/s to my MIL and just wait for her phone call! I will do the same thing to my sister and Mom...they both know I'm pregnant but don't know its TWINS! Funny thing...when I started this blog I emailed the link to my sister...I don't guess she ever got the link b/c if she kept up with me she'd already know!!! </div>Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-43928951500054611952011-03-16T18:39:00.000-07:002011-03-16T18:39:04.312-07:00Gotta love that beta!!4w4d...<br />
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Not sure if I have mentioned it but I hate PIO!!!! I've been using the sesame oil and its finally started giving me knots and big red itchy spots! So I ordered the Ethyl Olate from my compounding pharmacy and OMG..Why would anyone use anything else! Its so much thinner and doesn't hurt at all! IF (which I won't) ever have to do this again I will use the EO from the beginning...I'm so sore and itchy! Hopefully just another week, 2 at the most, and I will be done with it! I do get to stop the E2V!! Woohoo! I still continue the Prenatal, Dex, PIO and suppositories. My ultrasound is the 22nd! I can't wait...oh..have I mentioned...my beta was 1297!!!! My RE was very excited about it!!! As am I!!!<br />
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Still super tired, nauseous from the time I wake up, horrible heartburn....that's about it. Still a little cramping but not much at all and I only notice it when I'm paying attention.<br />
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Here is a pic of my full progression from all of my tests...<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">I'm all out of tests so looks like I have to stop obsessing! </div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"></div>Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-76460837675939458332011-03-15T18:06:00.000-07:002011-03-15T18:06:45.526-07:00It begins...4w3d...<br />
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I have my 2nd beta tomorrow. I am very optimistic that it will be a fabulous number! It has to be!!<br />
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So...I didn't think cravings started for awhile but I can't stop thinking about Chili Cheese Fritos...I made a special trip to Target b/c I knew we were about out...this was my dinner tonight...<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I only have to IC left...I will save those for tomorrow so I can see how dark it is with my beta...but here is tonights test...with maybe a 30 minute hold and drinking TONS of water...I must say, I'm impressed!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
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I will update with my beta tomorrow! I can't wait! I can't believe I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!! I'll never get tired of saying that!!!<br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">578!!! </span><span style="font-size: small;">That's one hell of a beta! I'm pretty freakin excited!!!! I just pray it doubles Wednesday...When my RE called he was so excited...it got me all excited and I cried! I was at work when I got the call and I went to DH and wrote 578!!! On a Post It...he just started cheezin and gave me a high five...we couldn't really celebrate...so that was his way of letting me know how excited he is!!!</span><br />
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On the way home we talked a lot about being pregnant. He asked me if I would make hamburgers for dinner...I sd "We don't have any buns"...he says "We do, there in the oven" I gave him the craziest look and sd "We have buns in the oven?" Then I realized what I sd and he sd "We sure as hell do!!" It was pretty funny! <br />
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I just have too many emotions and feeling going on right now...I will update more when my emotions aren't so high!!! Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-45719825350847682132011-03-13T17:24:00.000-07:002011-03-13T17:24:50.622-07:00My babies!I just realized I haven't posted pics of my babies!!! My RE and embryologist referred to them as perfect! <br />
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I <3 them so much already!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-2845449118828303862011-03-13T14:29:00.000-07:002011-03-13T14:29:13.698-07:00Missing her every day...10dpt...<br />
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My test this morning was just beautiful...who ever thought a pee soaked stick could be considered beautiful!<br />
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I feel very emotional. Everything makes me want to cry...I can't watch a TV show without tearing up. I just watched Teen Mom 2 and I fought back tears the whole time. The nausea has also kicked in full force. I woke up this morning feeling like I was going to gag...I just have this knot in my throat. I love it tho...knowing my body is doing what it needs to. I just pray it continues to do what it should and my baby/ies are nice and snuggled in...<br />
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I looked up my due date and I'll be due 11/19...just 5 days before Thanksgiving. I'm so excited to have a little turkey!!!<br />
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I also want to say Happy Birthday Sarah! My BFF would have been 27 today had her life not ended too soon when she was only 16. I love you and miss you every day! I know you will watch over the baby growing inside me. Miss you so much!!!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-77928125200258569742011-03-12T21:21:00.000-08:002011-03-12T21:21:13.226-08:00I love sitting on Cloud 9...its so comfy!9dpt...<br />
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Just one more day and its beta day!!! I'm praying for an awesome number! With my tests getting so dark I don't think it will be a problem...I just don't want to get too confident. I still have a long way to go for the worrying to stop. I'm trying to enjoy this pregnancy tho...if something is going to happen I it isn't going to matter if I get excited or not! I never want to regret not being 100% ecstatic about this pregnancy!! <br />
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If all goes well we will tell our family at Easter. I'm going to have DS wear a shirt that says (on front) <br />
Question: What happens in November?" (back) "Answer: I'm going to be a BIG Brother!" It is so cute...I'm thinking about wearing one that says "Due in November" Not real sure yet...I'm not ordering DS shirt until after the u/s and we see a hb. I can't wait to tell him! <br />
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I'm still trucking along with the Dexamethasone, Prenatal, PIO and Prog/E2V suppositories...Tuesday should be my last E2V injection...I get to stop those when my beta doubles and by Wednesday I will know if it has doubles! <br />
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I'm starting to feel sick after I eat...it started with pizza at lunch yesterday...I felt fine at dinner tho. Today at lunch I felt a little nauseous afterwards but not too bad...this evening I feel like I could puke and I have horrible heartburn! I'm also crampy again...I just feel like AF is going to show any minute! I'm also still so tired..I took a nap today...still sleepy! Hopefully I can get some good sleep tonight and sleep in tomorrow! Since we're losing an hour! Boo! =-(<br />
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Here is my progression so far...starts at 5dp5dt AM, then PM...all the way up to today...9dp5dt AM!! Progressing nicely!<br />
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I'm still pregnant! Tests are still getting darker! Even my PM test today was as dark as this AM and I drank a TON of water and just had about a 2 hour hold! I just need my beta to double from Monday to Wednesday. I'm ready for the worry to lessen...I know it won't go away but it would be nice to worry a little less!<br />
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So DH and I decided to buy DS a shirt that says "I'm the BIG Brother!" and have him wear it at Easter...we will tell him a few days before to give him some time to let it sink in....then have him wear the shirt! I'm pretty excited!! I just hope he cooperates! I think he will be excited. He talks about wanting a sibling so hopefully he means it and he's ready! I can't believe he will be 8 by the time we have this baby! I always thought my kids would be close in age...oh well...this is the baby that was meant to be mine. Who cares how long it took to get to me! I love this baby so much already...or maybe babies? I'm trying not to think too much about twins...I would LOVE twins but twins scare me too! It will already be a high risk pregnancy and 2 babies would make it even more high risk! But the thought of twins is so exciting! I guess we'll know in a couple of weeks!!!!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-61593795849121682812011-03-09T18:02:00.000-08:002011-03-09T18:02:36.545-08:00Somebody pinch me...6dpt...<br />
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I feel like I'm dreaming...this can't be real! It worked! I'm pregnant!! Oh WOW! I'm happy, excited, anxious, nervous, terrified, over the moon!!!! Monday is my first beta...2nd is on Wednesday...my tests are getting darker so I feel good at the moment that betas will be fine...I'm terrified of that u/s. I don't want to go...I'd rather just wait a couple of weeks. I already told DH that I'm not looking...I'm laying there with my eyes closed and waiting for someone to say something good...<br />
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There are just too many emotions going right now...it is so hard to believe after 6 years and so much heartache we might be bringing home a baby! OMG!!! We won't be telling family until Easter...I will be 10 weeks then and we won't see everyone for a while after that so we decided that's the best time...I'm nervous...I would rather not tell anyone...just let them figure it out when I get huge...Oh I hope I get the chance to be huge! I will damn it...I won't take no for an answer! I'm pregnant!!!! I'm going to have another baby!!!!! I'm so excited!!!!!!!!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-80879228162946876622011-03-08T17:22:00.000-08:002011-03-08T17:22:16.210-08:00Oh...thats not good!5dpt...<br />
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So I tested this morning (Surprise! Surprise!) and I got a faint line...so I tested with SMU and it was darker...so I tested again around 3pm...maybe a little darker....so I tested again when I got home from work (yes I tested at work!) and its def darker!!! OMG! This has to be it...I want this baby more than anyone will ever know. I just need my beta on Monday and Wednesday to be good and double and then I have to survive the u/s which will be a week from my Wednesday beta. I just want to cry...I still haven't told DH I tested...he hasn't asked. I think he assumes I will be so overjoyed I won't be able to keep it from him. Its killing me but I don't want him to worry...The less he knows the better! But I want to scream to him "I'm pregnant!!!!!!!" <br />
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Saturday DH kept looking at me when we were out running around and I would ask him what and he kept saying I looked so pretty and he kept commenting on my make up...it was funny...then he finally sd "You're glowing!" I thought it was an ironic choice of words since I should be glowing!!! idk...it made me smile! <br />
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Nothing new as far as sxs...still tired...hungry and oh so emotional! We went to a basketball game Sunday and during the "Kiss Cam" a guy proposed to his GF...I got all teary and almost cried! It was so sweet!<br />
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The injections still suck! Last nights PIO about made me cry...it hurt so bad! Tonight I had to to E2V and PIO...PIO went fine...stung but not too bad. The E2V hurt like hell and when DH pulled out the needle it squirted blood...all over my pants and the carpet! Luckily I was able to get it out of the carpet...DH freaked out! I should only have 2 more of those left! Yay!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-19892797318565885672011-03-07T17:31:00.000-08:002011-03-07T17:31:33.242-08:00The TWW is torture!!!!4dpt...<br />
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I can't believe I've already started testing...so much for waiting! I think I might have the tiniest little line but idk. I keep telling myself not to get excited...I guess I will know in a few days...<br />
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After lunch I started feeling nauseous. It was kind of weird b/c I didn't feel like I had eaten too much...just all of a sudden felt like I was going to be sick. I also got really hot...I had been cold all day and just felt flushed all of a sudden. It was strange...after about an hour I felt fine. I'm just really tired...maybe I'll get in bed early so it won't seem like so long before I get to POAS again!!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-22946654162050882362011-03-06T08:44:00.000-08:002011-03-06T08:44:40.600-08:00And it begins...3dpt...<br />
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It has been a very busy weekend! Had a baby shower for a relative yesterday and then went to BIL basketball game. They didn't win which sucks but he had a great Senior year and we are very proud of him. Now he can start thinking about his future and what he is going to do after HS!<br />
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I had a little cramping the day after transfer and yesterday but nothing so far today. My boobs are sore but they always are on progesterone so thats nothing new...I'm hungry all the time...that's nothing new on Dex...I'm exhausted...no surprise I've been so busy! So I have a reason for all of my symptoms. I did POAS this morning...stupid I know...I so shouldn't have. I think I see the tiniest bit of something but then I don't...I think I am just crazy! <br />
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DH's grandma is hanging out with us today and we are taking her to a Thunder game tonight so that should keep my mind busy. I'm sure I will test again in the AM since I've gotten started! I can't stop now! Damn I wish I hadn't started it!!!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-90144127853950921952011-03-04T19:50:00.000-08:002011-03-04T19:50:28.873-08:00Pizza and Shopping!Day 35...Dexamethasone, Prenatal, PIO, E2V Injection, E2V/Prog. Supp....1dpt<br />
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My bedrest ended at 1pm today. It was nice to get up and move. I feel so sore now from laying around for so long! As soon as I got up I had to get in the shower and get ready for DS program at school...It was soo cute and he had a speaking part and he did awesome! I'm so proud of him! <br />
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After the program DH went to his brothers basketball game...they won!! After the game his family wanted to go out to dinner so we went to Old Chicago...had some yummy pizza and ate way too much! I was so hungry tho! Then I had to do a little last minute shopping for the baby shower tomorrow...Now I'm exhausted!!! Tomorrow is a long day with the baby shower and then BIL basketball game. If they win this one they go to State! I really hope they can pull it off and win State his Senior year! <br />
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Symptoms....None...not that I expect anything...I just had the transfer yesterday. I guess exhaustion is about all I'm feeling. I've had a headache on and off since we got home from transfer. I'm thinking thats b/c I haven't had any caffeine!! I did have a diet dr pepper with dinner tonight! It was so good! I've also lost my urge to POAS...which is good b/c I would really like to wait until the day before beta! We shall see!!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-41558154034143947462011-03-03T17:56:00.000-08:002011-03-03T17:56:12.616-08:00Today was a fabulous day!!!Day 34...Dexamethasone, Prenatal, PIO....FET!!!!<br />
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We transferred 2 beautiful embies today!!! I had really wanted to transfer 3 but after the thaw I was advised by 4 doctors that it wasn't a good idea and the 2 I have look amazing! So I trust them. They all seemed very confident. I just wanted them to at least consider 3 and they did.<br />
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I expected the embies to be thawed when I got their and the embryologist came to talk to me and sd she was going to go thaw them and she'd let me know how they looked...I was a little surprised. She came back like 5 minutes later and sd they were gorgeous!! She sd sometimes they degenerate but mine were still looking good 10 minutes later when we were ready to transfer...The actual transfer didn't take more than 5 minutes. Then I laid flat on my back for 30 minutes...then headed home! I'm being nice and lazy laying in bed now! On the way home we stopped at Whole Foods and DH ran in and got a pineapple! I cut it up when we got home and ate some...I figure I will eat a little every day for the next few days. <br />
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I haven't decided when I will start testing...my beta is the 14th...I would like to wait until the 13th to test...that would have been my best friends birthday. She was killed in a car accident when we were 16. Not a day goes by that I don't think about her! What is really weird...if I am pregnant with twins my due date will be October 26th, which is the anniversary of her death...Maybe that day will turn into a good day and not a day that I dread every year. It has always been a horrible day for me. I'm praying Sarah brings me my BFP and keeps my baby(ies) save for 9 months!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-91641218959766330302011-03-02T21:01:00.000-08:002011-03-02T21:01:55.650-08:00Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?Day 33...Dexamethasone, Prenatal, PIO<br />
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Tomorrow is the day!!!! <br />
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We are leaving at 8 am so we have time to stop for lunch! I've got to buy my pineapple too! Almost forgot about that!<br />
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Todays funny...We went out to dinner tonight and got home a little later than usual so it was time to do my PIO as soon as we walked in the door...I got the needle ready and went to change my clothes...I ended up just wearing my bra and panties when DH did the injection...He has been putting band aids on my injection sites so we know which side we are on for one and b/c they have been bleeding some..anyway...I laid down on the bed and DH says "Can I rip them off?" I respond "Uh...not right now!" He starts cracking up and says "The band aids...not your panties!" Haha...I totally thought he was trying to get frisky!! Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-10768598279513346332011-03-01T18:06:00.000-08:002011-03-01T18:06:47.606-08:00SO ready!!!!!Day 32...Dexamethasone, Prenatal, PIO and E2V Injection<br />
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I wish I could sleep tomorrow away and it was Thursday! But I can't...so I will stay as busy as I can, just like I did today! Seems like the day flew by. Hoping tomorrow does the same!<br />
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I'm boring at the moment but hopefully after Thursday I have all kinds of symptoms going on and tons to blog about!!!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-68658892150317415592011-02-28T18:48:00.000-08:002011-02-28T18:48:26.344-08:00The days are getting longer...Day 31...Dexamethasone, Azithromyoson, Prenatal, PIO<br />
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Last day of the antibiotic! Woohoo!! Only 3 more days...I'm so anxious. These next couple of days can't go by fast enough!!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-9339022767196238812011-02-27T10:39:00.000-08:002011-02-27T10:39:01.509-08:00The day of rest...Day 30...Dexamethasone, Azithromyosen, Prenatal, PIO<br />
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Enjoying a lazy Sunday. I have tons of stuff I need to do. I need to get stuff for the shower next weekend since I will be on bed rest Thursday and Friday. I'm going to buy the hostess gift today...need to get decorations but that might wait until Friday evening. We'll see if I can get myself together today. I'm walking with a limp b/c my hip is so sore from the PIO yesterday...I feel like I fell really hard. I didn't sleep very good last night b/c every time I rolled to my left side it hurt...I'm doing one in each hip tonight to see how that is! Just 4 more days! I can't wait!!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-63118748298614184402011-02-26T21:49:00.000-08:002011-02-26T21:49:31.891-08:00The things we will do for the babies we already love so much!!Day 29...Dexamethasone, Azithromyosen, Prenatal, PIO<br />
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I would like to start off my saying I have no clue how to spell Azithromyosen and I will probably spell it different every post...I'm too lazy to get up and go look at the package...<br />
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Well, we went to watch BIL play basketball tonight. The won districts last week and lost tonight so they were runner up in Regionals...they start Area Thursday, so I won't be able to go, since I will be on bed rest...if they win Thursday they will play again Friday. If they lose he's done, this is his Senior year so Thursday could be his last game...makes me sad I'm going to miss it...hopefully they win all 3 games and make it to State! <br />
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Since we were out of town when it came time for PIO I took it with me and DH and I had to get creative...luckily BIL needed a ride to the gym and MIL wasn't ready to go...so DH and I took him and I got injected in the ass in a HS parking lot, in the car...I decided to try the entire 2cc with one injection to see how it went..OUCH! It wasn't so bad doing it but I am so sore now! I have heated seats in my car so I turned them on before I did it and then had them on after...then kept it on the hour drive home...still so sore...I'm thinking it might be better to just do 2 injections...I will try 2 tomorrow and see how it goes...Its going to be a long 4 weeks! It will be worth it when my babies are growing inside of me tho! Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-3236257388325210472011-02-25T17:47:00.000-08:002011-02-25T17:47:02.395-08:006 days and counting!!!!Day 27...Lupron, Dexamethasone, Prenatal<br />
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Tonight was the first night of 2 IM injections...no fun! I decided to do both in the same hip...OUCH...I can barely sit! Oh well...it's only going to get worse from here so I might as well get over it! <br />
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I'm finally done with the Lupron, which is nice. I won't have to get up at 7am on weekends. I have to take 3 pills in the AM but it isn't a big deal if its at 10am, or whenever I roll out of bed! I can't believe I only have 6 days left! I'm so flippin excited! Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-82739612114801821832011-02-23T20:50:00.000-08:002011-02-23T20:50:57.945-08:00Cake before dinner? Yes, please!Day 26...Lupron, Dexamethasone, Prenatal<br />
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Can you say exhausted? It was a long day...worked almost 10 hours and then went to the OTA Awards Banquet this evening. The food was so-so...we sit down at our table and our dessert is already there...they seriously expect me to wait 20 minutes for my salad and not try the cake? The salad was not so great...the croutons were stale...finally the main course...it was a nice size fillet...with marinara. It was weird but kind good. Then mashed potatoes and asparagus...and a roll...I must say, the roll was pretty dang good! I could have eaten 10 of them! But I didn't...I only got one! As soon as they took that plate away I was all over that chocolate cake. I wasn't disappointed. It was pretty dang amazing!! <br />
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Well tomorrow is my last day of Lupron...as I sit here I realize I'm kind of crampy...like AF is coming. First time I noticed it...maybe its just my body telling me its exhausted and needs sleep! Night!Kortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718225516010100766.post-4947099121210507662011-02-22T18:38:00.000-08:002011-02-22T18:38:46.344-08:00We've got a gusher...Day 25...Lupron, Dexamethasone, Prenatal, E2V Injection<br />
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that's what DH says after giving me my E2V injection! I had him put a little round band aid on it and I went on my merry little way. I'm excited I only have 2 more days of Lupron! I won't have to wake up at 7am this weekend! I may actually sleep in! I'm trying to decide what time to do my PIO...I did it at 7pm for my first IVF...I'm thinking I might do it at 9pm this go around...we are usually always home by then and if we did having something to do in the evening I wouldn't have to worry about doing my shot away from home...<br />
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Now for a funny...<br />
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So, DH and I work together...we had new hire in for training last Friday and DH was going their training the public library across from our building. At lunch they had ordered City Bites and gotten sandwiches and cookies...well that afternoon DH called and asked me to run over and get some stuff to make copies of and he needed me to take him a few things...I go over, see the cookies and whisper "Can I have a cookie?" He smiles and says "Of course you can!" I go get my cookies and go back to the office...on the way home from work DH says "I can't believe you asked me for a quickie." I looked at him all kinds of crazy and asked what the hell he was talking about. I was replaying the day in my head and trying to figure out when I was feeling frisky enough to ask for a quickie at work!! He says "In the library, you asked for a quickie!" I cracked up!! He was so disappointed when I told him I just wanted a cookie! He went all afternoon thinking I was all hot and bothered by myself at work! He is such a dork! I just had to share...today someone had girl scout cookies and I took one to DH and asked "You want a cookie?" He told me to go away! lolKortneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12873501647550682955noreply@blogger.com0