Sunday, February 13, 2011

You've got to be kidding me!

Day 15...Lupron, Dexamethasone, Prenatal

Day 16...Lupron, Dexamethasone, Prenatal

Its been a busy weekend!!! 

I took DS to a birthday party yesterday at a science museum.  It was a lot fun!  He wants to have his birthday there now.  I'm sure he'll change his mind 100 times by October!  After the party we went to see my brother, his wife and my niece.  I just love that little girl so much but she is such a little shit!  My sil recently found out she's pregnant...she's probably 8 or 9 weeks...she hasn't been to the doctor yet, much be be nearly out of your first trimester and still haven't gone to the doctor.  Every time she has seen me since finding out she talks about how scared she is that she will m/c...idk if she truely is scared she will m/c or if its a jab at me...I try to give her the benefit of the doubt but she can be a bitch...she portrays herself as this sweet Christian but she has another side...She is very manipulitive...While visiting with her she kept complaining about how sick she's been and how horrible she feels...she then looks right at me and says "I'll trade you!"  I came so close to punching her in the face.  I'll trade you?  Are you fucking serious!!!!  You don't say that to someone who has tried to concieve for 6 years and recently had a m/c....I should be 24 weeks into my pregnancy...I'll take your morning sickness you stupid bitch!  I said "I'd gladly take it" and walked about.  I so wanted to tell her to fuck off!  She rubbed her first pregnacy in my face...why wouldn't she do the same this time.  I just pray this FET works and I can enjoy my morning sickness and exhaustion!  I want more than anything to puke every time I eat and feel like I can never get enough sleep...oh what I would give!  For now...I will keep my mouth shut...I will continue to silently struggle and feel what I'm going to feel.  I'll be ok tho...I always am. 

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